Great Day Everyone! Last night I had some technical difficulties with my computer only to find out that the post I was working on did not save. Now I’m left to start all over again.
Now back to the subject at hand. It was a great surprise to me that I was a reluctant hero. It was revealed to me this week, by the circumstances I went through this week. I tell you my DMP from 2013 has come back to haunt me which was the revelation. I stated that I wanted to build a one level home, 4 bedrooms, and 5 baths, a horse shoe drive way, Grecian pool, my yard to look like an oasis, and to accommodate my physical challenges. I also entailed building a family legacy with our family owned business, I also wanted to become an author and speaker. Now my current DMP entails some of the same goals but there are some changes I made.
Needless to say I have been forced into unseen circumstances with my current home that was bought and paid for in full in 2001, but due to my Dad running into some financial problems, and needing funds to start on a commercial job he used my house to secure a loan, not realizing if he didn’t meet the terms in a year we would lose my home. He never informed me of this. I learned about this in September 3 days after I lost my place of service. My only income. Talk about timing. I have to pay rent now and no source of income. Thanks Universe and Dad.
This led me to open a go fund me account and while doing this I had to give a description of why I needed this financial assistance. As I did this I started to become intrigued by my father’s story, and a few others. I have started writing the book about my parents. Now I’m forced to go back to Detroit to see what’s gong on with my Dad’s business, and why he is experiencing such a decline in his business, which is our family legacy. Detroit isn’t a nice place to be at the moment, and the weather definitely isn’t nice during the winter. I need to be the hero right now for my parents and my grand baby. I now wish that I had just did it on my own, but that was me denying the assignment or task at hand.
I’m discovering that just because I was slow poking on moving towards the things I said I wanted the Universe/GOD had already started putting things in motion. Now I’m playing catch up to what I originally asked for. I’m excited because I’m seeing that the MKMMA is the real deal wholly field, not that I didn’t before, but it’s truly a big difference when you start experiencing it for yourself.
I’m somewhat disappointed in myself because I didn’t keep my promises as I said, and the ball kept rolling without me. Now I’m in uncomfortable circumstances, but I’m thankful because I’m uncomfortable I have no choice but to get into action. This has shown me that I am very stubborn. My current circumstances had me feeling like Job and Jonah at the same time. I have finally recognized, and surrendered to the process. I accept and take full responsibility for what is happening in my life at the moment. I’m excited to see the things to come. This has also moved me to revise my DMP and really get to the core f the direction I’m headed in.
This experience has been very humbling and a little humiliating at the same time because I’m one that doesn’t like to ask anyone for anything, but I had no choice. This experience has stripped me of my pride, and ego which is what I said I would sacrifice in my DMP for this year, and it increased my courage which was my word for the week. How ironic! It also has allowed me to become a grateful receiver. I’m an excellent giver, but a horrible receiver. I have great difficulty allowing people to help me, no I had great difficulty. I no longer have that issue. I’m a grateful receiver now, not by choice, but because it is necessary. It’s almost spooky how things are happening.
I’m more thankful about finally being able to accept that I have been a reluctant hero, and now I am a willing and enthusiastic hero and receiver. Thanks for stopping by. Until we meet again.